I’ve been thinking about the concept known as Rebis. In the Alchemical Tradition that word denotes the culmination of the “Great Work” … which includes the union of opposites. I don’t think there’s much chance of Rebis being achieved in actuality. And in the arena of the mind, I think it’s a wonderfully worthwhile project, but one that probably always proceeds one step forward and two steps back. I say this because the union-of-opposites-like enterprise I’m preoccupied with these days is the collaboration of my conscious and unconscious faculties. And my experience so far is that the unconscious is vast, and by comparison consciousness is miniscule. Like the difference in scale between the earth and the entire rest of the universe.
An idea I’ve been toying with is that what I’m consciously aware of expands in response to experiences in actuality and as a consequence of contributions shared by my unconscious faculties, either while on the edge of sleep or as ideas that present themselves to me while I’m awake. Such day-time gifting usually takes place during moments when I’m not actively responding to a pressing need in actuality, or on those occasions when I’m engaged in some manual task like putting leaves on the tree in the image above. While performing almost automatic, largely repetitive actions with my hands, unsought ideas present themselves that often feel wildly out of left field and at the same time also wonderfully pertinent.
Shortly after I first began noodling over Rebis several weeks ago I happened upon a particularly wonderful Tarot deck called Visconti Sforza. I do not read Tarot cards myself, but I’m always grateful for the ideas that cross my mind when I look at them. While looking at the Visconti Sforza deck the “Rebis Card” above began to take shape in my thoughts.
High Retreat
From time to time over several months, I dreamt an image very much like the one above. And subsequently on the edge of sleep, I began willfully visualizing myself there. Sometimes by the water. Sometimes walking among the trees. Sometimes within the structure high on the craggy peak, which I explore, or from which I simply look out the windows.
The image above is not an exact replica of the place I dreamt, but all the key features that were present are represented, and it captures the sense of scope and feeling of the original vista. The image above has since eclipsed the original in my thoughts, and offers itself as a highly accessible site for edge of sleep exploration.
Update 1/12/26: In my imagination on the edge of sleep I’ve built a small dock on the near side of the lake. That gets me out over the water, but not too close, as there are lots of large, strange beings, some perhaps uncordial, just below the surface. (I hope I can loosen up around that wariness as I acclimate.) And I’ve constructed a comfy wooden lounge-like deck chair where I sit on the dock under an awning, smoking a maduro-wrapped cigar, sipping a canned margarita, and admiring the view. I imagine when the weather turns, I may prefer to be in the structure on the craggy height … but maybe not. There are no shutters on the windows, so the wind and rain would certainly get in. The place could get super nippy and the wet stone floors would probably be pretty slippery. At the same time I’m not sure I’d want to install shutters since I like the way the place looks now very much. Of course, that may change.
Wild in the Temenos
The fantasy I associate with the image above is that I’m the personification of a people. We looked at the world and drew conclusions about how it works. The conclusions that aligned with our desires were refined and codified, and a physical structure was erected, expressing our orthodoxy in columns, arches, and domes.
But one night I dreamt that a great dark horse with a white star on its brow was running wild in the orthodoxy structure. And when I awoke, I was in a vast meadow. Waist-high tawny grass and the boughs of distance trees swayed and churned. The breeze chill on my face was sweet autumn scents and the stench of rotting flesh from an open trench that ran zig-zig to the horizon. There was the buzz of flies and bees, the caw of crows, the laughter of children and the howling of beasts. Shadows of clouds moved hugely over me, alternately cast by swaths of great white formations in an azure sky, then walls of black thunderheads. Light and dark. Light and dark. The earth beneath my feet cried out and there was a sensation in my being like the opening of a door. A wave of unorthodox conclusions about how the world works poured in.
Themis
The word liminal has been much in my thoughts. Dr. Google tells me it means, “occupying a position at, or on both sides of, a boundary or threshold.” In my most recent previous post I considered Persephone, Queen of the Underworld, who spends part of the year here and part of the year in the other place. And my understanding of my own situation as that of someone perpetually here and in another place, though directly conscious of the goings on in the other place only while on the edge of sleep … and then only through a marvelous lens of fantastic images.
I had read that because she simultaneously and perpetually knows what’s on both sides of the door, Persephone’s aunt Themis knows how it all fits together. As a consequence, because she knows the complete back story, Themis can sponsor oracles. She knows when something is right, and she knows when something is not as it should be.
Themis is also the mother of the Moirai (the Fates), of whom Wikipedia says, “The role of the Moirai was to ensure that every being, mortal and divine, lived out their destiny as it was assigned to them by the laws of the universe.” I think of them as the personifications of “what happens” — independent of ambition, hope, rationalization, best and worst intentions, and all other thoughts, isms or actions one might engage. They are how the cookie crumbles.
The other day I asked a pal what ideas she thought a parent might share with a child to help them face an environment and civilization that we’ve wrecked beyond repair. She proposed the phrase, “Life is not fair.” Upon reflection, I find that I’m entirely on board with that idea. The Fates come to mind, and it occurs to me that if a child asks, “But what do I do?! What do I do?!” I’d be inclined to suggest, “Be kind when you can. And be as happy as you can as long as you can.”
In the image above I’ve imagined Themis offering for our consideration thoughts from the Quran rendered in cuneiform that read:
When the heavens have
been rent asunder
And the stars have
been set to flight
When the seas have
been comingled
And the graves have
been upturned
A soul will know
what it has
sent forward
And what it has
held back
Queen of the Underworld
I’ve been enjoying the extremely satisfying experience of my insides and outsides collaborating on the same project.
As I’ve droned on about at length elsewhere, I’ve been courting my unconscious, and in that service I’ve been thinking of my unconscious as personified by Persephone, Queen of the Underworld and the goddess of springtime, vegetation, and the cycle of life and death. The image above is the latest product of that suit.
I’ve long held that key decisions I’ve made while developing visual images were largely directed by unconscious dynamics. That instinct has transitioned into what feels like a pleasurable mental sensation. As if Persephone is responding to my attentions with abundant, increasingly robust input while I work, proposing prospects that might logically seem far afield from the matter at hand, yet stimulate arrangements of pixels that when implemented seem wonderfully right to me. And there is a feeling of tremendous satisfaction in rendering them.
And then there’s what happens when I stand back and consider an image I’ve rendered. For example, an association I especially enjoy about the image above is that Wikipedia informs me Persephone is holding a sistrum – a ritual rattle. A very long time ago … perhaps in my twenties … I recall visualizing an anxious “primitive” standing close to a small campfire holding a rattle. The fire, the human figure and what he’s holding is all that is visible. The rest is black nothing. I recall thinking, “Reason is a rattle we shake against the darkness.”
I think that memory crosses my mind at this time because I sense myself more and more willfully attempting not to work from a linear thread of reasoned intentionality. Instead, trying to organize pixels in expressions of associations. Then wondering wide eyed what potential meanings the image might suggest.
For an account of an exchange with Google’s AI regarding statistically induced hallucinations related to my comment above about “reason”… click
Facade and Reflection
The façade pictured in the image above belongs to the second and third floor of a building on Grant Avenue in San Francisco which I photographed in February 2003. That façade is NOT an element of the lovely Peabody Hotel in Memphis, Tennessee, at which I had the pleasure of helping to stage a conference in the 1980s.
A fun attraction of the Peabody continues to be the twice-daily march of the Peabody Ducks to and from a fountain in the center of the hotel’s main lobby. Another fun but lesser-known uniqueness of the hotel is the “Lead Duck” pin. If you are wondering what a pin made of lead and shaped like a duck could be about you are already leaning in the direction I hope this post will take you.
The pin is given to key folks who are participating in the staging of an event at the hotel. It lets the hotel staff know that the wearer is to be accorded special assistance if requested because they are an event lead…er. Pleasantly aware that “lead” has at least two meanings, and potential humor can arise from a meaning switch, when the hotel’s delightful convention manager presented me with my pin she declared me a “Lead Duck” – pronounced “led” as in the heavy, bluish-gray, soft, ductile metal. I remain very amused.
I love words that can mean more than one thing. From words soulful like tear, to words colorful (another word that also has a couple of meanings) like booty. Which brings me to façade and reflection and the image above.
I think of my own experience of my own experience as a layer-like zone vacillating in a conical space between unconsciousness and consciousness. Imagine on the left side of the screen an immense globe of swirling unconscious material, each mote of which is related to every other mote by a gazillion associative connections. On the right side of that globe imagine a conical space…a transition area the base of which projects from and interacts with the swirling unconscious stuff. And emerging to the right from the apex of the cone is a line of thoughts, formed when the unconscious stuff moves and is processed through the cone into a linguistic-like conscious thread that allows me to purchase a jar of pickles, open it, and tell you about it.
Regarding that conical space, I think of myself as sort of a band or layer that moves back and forth between the unconscious base and the conscious apex. Often hovering nearer the base than the apex. Especially lately since I’ve been willfully courting a state that, with increasing frequency, allows what I see there to linger as images that can be recalled. Images from a depth within the cone that precedes the point where one or another related meaning gets designated as the next bead in the linier conscious thread – from a depth at which differentiation between things has not yet occurred.
Winter Solstice 2013
Before physics and chemistry there was alchemy. The alchemists asked questions that were beyond the resources available to them to provide satisfactory answers. Many of the gaps between what they wanted to know and what they could find out through experimentation were filled in with speculation and imaginings – usually added on top of the speculations and imaginings of those who came before them. (Hmmm…any chance we still do that now?)
Substances, like people, generally behave in fairly predictable ways consistent with their personalities. Since the alchemists were intensely interested in substances, and studied them over long periods of time, they felt they knew them. And they saw a little of themselves in their glowing caldrons.
When the alchemists projected aspects of themselves on the substances they studied lots of internal stuff – psychological stuff – was revealed. The image above is composed of 12th Century alchemical symbols arranged to suggest the ongoing process of individual experience.
represents the sun and gold and is a metaphor for consciousness.
represents the moon and silver and is a metaphor for the unconscious.
represents mercury, a fluid state, and is a metaphor for a personality in transition. This symbol is composed of both the symbols for gold and silver, plus a cross that represents space and time divided into quadrants – crosshairs suggesting “you are here.”
through to and sometimes it flows the other way.